Tuesday, April 11, 2006
i'm totally worn out.i brought the laptop today BUT we did not use it in the end.
it's so tiring carrying the laptop around cos it's bloody heavy & my shoulders were also aching badly.pffts!! we did not do the project because th leader left immediately after lecture & she didnt pass us our information b4 she went off.
i was quite pissed cos she was the one who asked me to bring in the first place.i cant understand why that leader needs to go off so fast everytime.
anyway, she claims that she doesnt go shopping much & she stay at home most
of the time.what is she in the hurry all the time? get home to masturbate ?
GRRRR! we just cant get down to discuss our project TOGETHER & properly unlike other
groups.one or two of them are always in the rush to go off to somewhere.
shiyun has a bf to drive her everyday , how lucky.
anyway the leader hasnt left us any information, we cant do any shit yet.
so she suggested to do research on our own & highlight th main pts ourselves. -.-"
then i ask her whther i can leave my laptop in her car.& she said NO.
fuck pls.
ok, whatever!!!!
after school, went to meet aliff.i ate my lunch at BK then walked around in WM.
after that we went to buy his HP and buy some stuffs for his silly fishes.
finally, cabbed home frm bb central.
right now, i'm waiting for the broadband's person to come to my huse to install
the wireless connection thing.
i'm so exhausted.
sighs.
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it's been bothering me since then.
you changed & that's the attitude towards me.
it might be some misunderstanding between you & me.
but i really want to know the exact reasons.
i know you dont give a fuck about me anymore.
& you dont even treat me like a friend.
i feel like i dont exist on earth.
i dont mean anything to you.
a simple conversation or a hi & bye, it's so difficult for you.
i cant understand what is happening behind all these.
maybe someone is telling tales all the long.
everyone knows that i still love you.
perhaps if you're smart, you'll have felt it long time ago .
i wanted to forget you eons ago but it seems so hard for me.
i know the bad things you talked about me to all your friends.
they told me everything.
you hurt me so many times and yet,i still cant let you go.
i feel so stupid to do little things concerning you to make me happy.
i was really afraid to lose all these little things .
i dont want to regret in future.
because of you, i find it so hard to trust boys.
not all but mostly.i just have to thank all my g8 friends for being there for me evrytime;
every hour, every minute & every second.
& definitely,all the extra news about him & useful advices you all gave me.
it's just soo sweet & thoughtful of all of you.
i love you guys a lot a lot! (:
YJocelyn Jeanine
3:49 PM
